What a difference a......blog makes

I never thought writing a blog when I was feeling down would make such a difference! After writing my last blog I went away and did some research about treatment of PMT (or PMS as my doctor called it). Within minutes I had found out about various herbal treatments and was beginning to feel more positive. After a bit more research I found out about Agnus Castus which is from the berries of the Caste Tree. It is said to really help with the mood swings and the depression.

The next day I spoke to my Pharmacist about whether it would clash with my antidepressants (Mirtazapine) and as they didn't know they said they would come back to me, which they did a couple of days later. They couldn't find any contraindications but advised me just to check it out with my doctor. By now I was feeling better because I was back in control, I knew why I was feeling so bad and I was taking matters into my own hands by doing the research etc.

I saw my doctor yesterday (by which time ,with my period nearly over, I was feeling almost normal!) and she was very understanding. She said there was no proof of the helpfulness of herbal remedies but there was no clash with my medication. She said she was happy for me to try if it helped me even if that was just by giving a placebo effect. She also outlined other possible alternatives if the Agnus Castus doesn't work but I am going to try this for 3 months first.

The other thing that came out of my last blog was that a close friend contacted me to tell me how worried she was about me and to make some suggestions of her own to try. I was really touched by her help and most or all her concern about me! So my dear friend, you know who you are, a big thank you for being there as you always are!!!

Angry Moods

I’m feeling utterly wretched today! I wish I could say it was just a bad day and that I would feel better tomorrow but I have felt like this for the last couple if days! If my Dad is pleasant and cheery I just feel really cross at him just because he is happy, I find it annoying. I Love my Dad, really I do, but I just can’t help or understand how I feel! Is it PMT? I used to be on the pill to regulate my periods but since being put on antidepressants. I have as a consequence put on weight and am at risk of a stroke if I remain on the Pill, therefore, I am suffering PMT for the first time ever! I am a total Bitch when I have it and as my periods are no longer every 4 weeks I don’t know when my period is coming and I don’t realise that I am suffering from PMT. I feel utterly cross all the time, it never seems to lift! Does anyone out there have any tips for dealing with PMT and for my parents, living with it? Why do I feel so cross? It is a horrid feeling.

I have so many lovely things around me and much to be happy about. Right this minute I have a lovely little dog lying asleep next to me, snoring slightly. Although she hasn’t been the best-behaved dog today I had to laugh when I took her for a walk. I was sure there was no water around for her to wallow in, as she likes to do, but after she had run around for a while she ran over to a building currently being built and there was a trench filled with water! By the time I got over there She was thoroughly wet and muddy and very happy!

Well I guess there is no easy answer to how I feel, but if I find anything that helps me, I will share it with you! I do hope there is something out there otherwise I will have to just live through the wretched moods!